Fucking Blogger
1/11/2005
Sometimes I really hate blogger. It ate the best, most heartfelt and personal post in the history of my blog. GRRRR!
Super Summary: Life isn't the way I want it (whine whine whine). I've done lots of shit, but I'm eager to really dig into the meat and potatoes of what life is all about. Time to do something different. After all, I'm a Gemini, so that's a good enough excuse as any.
I think I'll start off with some introspection, really get in there and explore what makes me tick. But not in a violent, uprooting way. A little gentle soul medicine instead. Perhaps a retreat to St. Francis of the Woods, or Heart Song in Deer, Arkansas. Or maybe an internal retreat over a long 3-day weekend. Away from my nasty house and all the dusty animals. Away from my family, friends, and all the people that I am regularly in touch with.
I get this way about once a year. And then I do a few silly things before losing interest and going back to my 'survive survive survive and have a few good laughs' lifestyle. This journal might help me to keep track of my thoughts, keep me on course, etc. One hopes. Hell, if I can quit smoking (it's been over a year now), I should be able to take a nice mental break and dip my soul into some good introspective peace and healing every now and then. It seems a lot easier than quitting a nasty habit, but it's not. It requires making a decision, something I'm not very good at after hours.
That said, it's probably time to get off this stinking box and get ready for bed.
BTW, you might notice posts from another name. This is my partner in crime, Edward Svengali, master of disguise. He's too lazy to set up his own blog, so I thought I'd lend him the use of mine to make things a little more interesting. He likes to bitch about neocons, republicans and other seedy folk far more than I, so we'll just let him do that. And in the process, maybe I'll get a break or two.
G'night.
posted by novachild @ Tuesday, January 11, 2005,
