Cd burner died. Haven't had it for a year, and it just stops working. Shit.
Water got shut off because we forgot to pay the bill before we went on vacation. And thanks to vacation and xmas, I'm broke. So no baths (at home) until next payday. Shit shit shit.
Most devastating is the death of my wife's grandmother, who was 94 when she passed gently in the night on Christmas Eve. It was her time, for sure, and she lived a long and experience-filled life, but it's always hard to let go of people you love. I was her daytime caregiver for awhile; it was my job, but really more than that. It was my introduction to this family that I have now surrounded myself with, married into, become a part of. And there is a lot of pain going on at the moment. And I don't want to do anything but sit here and stare.
And listen to old records on my Technics SL-D202. I've got Vangelis spinning right now, "Opera Sauvage," a nice, moody, simple thing to get my mind out and away from the normal complexities. Just 3 seconds of Autechre and I was about to put my head through the monitor.
My prayers and thoughs go out to the victims of the great earthquake in Southeast Asia. It's a season for tragedy, and I honestly don't know how much more pain and anguish this planet earth is going to be able to bear. I guess it will all work itself out in the end, but in the meantime we just trudge through the swamps of pain, hoping for a glimpse of beauty.
Now, it's off to get the latest details on the funeral, catch a bite to eat, and probably a reinstall of XP.
posted by novachild @ Sunday, December 26, 2004,
